January 2010
New Year.
braddleyyyy:
karmapoliceman:
I dont understand why its so hyped up. It might be the end of this year, and the end of this decade.. But tomorrow is just another day. And so is the day after. Nothing will change apart from the date.
Maybe youll end up in bed all day, nursing a hangover.. and if thats the way you want to spend the first day of the new year.. so be it. Dont think that New Year...
I miss the time we never had.
You guys wanna know how I feel?
I feel nothing. Nothing. No love, no hate, no passion.
So, Garrett left me today.
6 months of bull shit. I obviously couldn’t do anything to save the relationship. I never had punched someone so hard before. Actually I wasn’t even punching someone that hard. It was half of my strength.
What’s worse? I fucking lost my virginity to him. And guess...
December 2009
You know what the funny thing is? He did a horrible thing no he did many horrible things like cheating and lying about never going to cheat. So he thinks he could just now act like he’s okay again. Fucker if you think you will get my trust back that easily, think twice. You have to literally be perfect. Be everything I want and need and do everything almost 100 percent error free. If...
I have been at the highest level of confidence a girl could have.
What makes that confidence?
Love itself.
Tis the season
To be jolly….
Not this year. Has anyone noticed that this year seems gloomy? Rather dead?Where is the joy? Where is love when I’m so wearily searching for it? I hate this year. The new year should be good..
It really fucking hurts.
She doesn’t even know.
He doesn’t even know.
WHY AM I STILL AROUND.
I deserve better….
God help me!
My emotions
I am half content and half angrier than ever… I said I wouldn’t leave but I stayed up all night restless thinking about the third horrible thing you have done. Even though we weren’t together, I can never look hungrily at your lips anymore. They have wandered too far. I am disgusted…I’m rather unsure about the last chance I should be giving you. I am weary. I have...
“I just want to say….FUCK YOU”
– Andrew
I'm running away
Alone.
I know I look good. I’ll most likely find someone else. True. Does it hurt you enough? No. How about if I just told you how much I hate you. Does it hurt now? No. What if I went back to the way I used to be; angry, hateful, mean; does it hurt now? No. What if I stopped caring? Does it hurt now? No. What if I don’t help you? No.
What if…
I forgot about you. Everything....
Is this it
Dillion if you’re reading this I just want you to know that I failed at my own advice I gave you. You love her. Don’t be harsh. Don’t forget. Forgive. And try. I’ve lost the best thing that has happened to me. 6 months may not compare to 11 months but time isn’t the importance of this regrettable feeling. If she left don’t make her friends hate her. Love her....
Things I did in 2009
(almost) stayed single for the whole year (x) made out in/on a car () kissed in the snow (x) celebrated Halloween (x) kissed in the rain (x) had your heart broken (x) broke someone else’s heart (x) had a stalker (x) went over the minutes on your cell phone (xxxxxxxxxx) had a good relationship with someone (x) someone questioned your sexual orientation () gotten pregnant () had an abortion (x) have...
For the lost ones
The ones who have experienced the great passion love can put into a human. You are the most vulnerable at this state. Remember that the ones you love the most may and most likely will hurt you. Why? Because God has choosen this for love. Love is anything but peaceful if it has no pain. You have to experience the pain first in order to piece together the glory. Lust is the enemy when your...
Somethings
Just need to be let go.
Not quit. But let go.
It’s about time I’ve made a decision.
I already did.
Baby it's just you and me, dont you see?
Today is our 6 month. Half a year. Can we make it? I believe we can. Yes we’ll continue to have fights. We’ll scream at each other, yell, punch things, and cry. But baby, face it. It’s life. We created a glorious memory just yesterday around 2:00 PM. Remember? You needed me. I held you in my arms and rested your head against my shoulders and held it close to my heart. I heard the...
I feel entitled
To you. I feel the strength and passion continue to grow. It’s okay. It’s okay. We are human. We will make mistakes and continue to make them. We would rather make them and learn from them than not make any and be stuck where we are. Feel it. We have developed a sense of love, care, and desire.
Yes, rest is now. Rest now. But we will be awaken to fight. Together. Pistol, revolver,...
My heart feels heavy.
I’m falling.
Where is the comfort.
Where are you…
“I never gave what you deserved, I never got down on one knee cause I was too...”
– Jackie Boyz
Lost.
Hmm..I changed. Or at least I’m sure of it this time. But this change hasn’t really done much for me.
I tried letting my anger go as quickly as I could last night and it didn’t even help. All because I couldn’t find the right words to say.
Today at school, it pretty much sucked. I’m going to quit complaining about basketball since I can’t even talk to my own...
Anthem of impending doom
This is what love is. Doing the stupidest thing together at the most awkward situations. I love it.
“I love you too.”
– Garrett
And pray for forgiveness We all carry these things Inside that no one else can see They hold us down like anchors They drown us out at sea I look up to the sky There may be nothing there to see But if I don’t believe in him Why would he believe in me? I know something you will never know I know something you don’t know
Winter is here
Nothing is warmer than winter. It makes sense. You put two people together :) with some snow, maybe some hot chocolate, a couch, tv, or a bed, lots of blankets, and pillows:) I love winter. I woke up this morning looking out in the dark with a blank feeling. It sucked and I was dreading practice, but the snow that came from nowhere quickly lifted my spirits up. Of course when I walked into the gym...