February 2010
Stressed. That’s all I can say right now. Fuck the bullshit.
January 2010
December 12th, 2009
Okay, okay. SAOSIN concert. I don’t know why all of a sudden I have the sudden urge to want to write this, but did I ever mention how freakin AWESOME they are live? Shit, I saw them for the very first time during the Taste of Chaos tour in 2006, then, I see them at Warped with Angie and got my ENTIRE body soaked in sweat, and then I saw them again December 12th at the Doors. Every time I...
Slit wrists from sleeping with the girl next door. I always knew you were such a sucker for fate. It doesn’t matter what you say, you never mattered anyway, you never mattered anyway
-UnderOath.
Oh man, I’ve been getting back into their music again<3 they bring back such good memories.
Maybe we, why don’t we sit right here for half and hour and we’ll speak of what a...
Emptiness. Pure emptiness.
All of a sudden; I don’t want to anymore. I just don’t want to.
It might be best if we don’t.
Funny…I could’ve sworn we planned this since Monday. And then rephrased it again quite often. One wrong sentence. One wrong feeling. One wrong step. The actions I take lead me off the wrong path. Or sometimes it may put me on the right path. I...
WatchOmg…this is my FIRST version of Hero/Heroine….This was on private and NOBODY has ever seen this. Enjoy xD I think I had personally liked this more…but the pace was rushed and I was messing up. And you couldn’t really see my face. I still hope I did alright haha.
F**K
This rain is peaceful…or was peaceful.
I’m stressed again. But not too much. Physics was easy, but now it’s hard ONCE AGAIN. I’m just kind of blah.
I don’t like how weather can easily affect a person’s mood.
Say This Sooner
I can’t believe I didn’t say this sooner I’ll just believe that I was all displaced I’ll get to speaking, let you know how I feel I’ll get to judging, make you see my appeal.
No one will ever see things the way I do No one will try All my friends think that I’m gone But I swear, I swear I’m not… This makes me feel that I’ll never be quite...
“I think this is where faith comes in…”
The little cravings
The smallest cravings as a human I get is kind of funny when I sit and think about it. I crave soda. I crave chocolate. I crave love. I crave basketball. I crave my boyfriend. I crave art. I crave my ring. I crave studying sometimes (wow…). I crave life.
I really, really look at my life a lot differently now. And I’m rather enjoying it. It’s great. I hope everyone else sees the...
whats it feel like to be a ghost
(via sludgexcity)
I love how one day, I get a twitter, and then everyone gets a twitter.
Then the next month I get a tumblr, and two months later 32894701237423 people get a tumblr. THEN, I recently got a formspring cause my best friend has one, and now the whole fucking world has one.
WHAT THE FUCK WILL BE NEXT?!?!
Shit, do you guys remember xanga? LMFAO.
One simple phone call
When I’m sick :)
Just to call and say I love you to me and to check up on me to see if I’m feeling any better.
I love you, Garrett. I wish people would see how our relationship is truly. It’s powerful. We’ve overcame obstacles that no one else can understand. It’s not just some bullcrap high school relationship. This is real.
I’m happy again :) and so are...
1 tag
I do this from time to time
Where I’d like to watch you as you sleep. I do this from time to time where I’d like to think of you with me.
You never forgot
Time to myself really made me develop a good sense of comfort. Hope to be more exact.
My faith in God suddenly continued to grow.
I had stopped fearing.
People will question and think “okay…seriously WTF is up with these two….”
You know what? I’m not even going to bother to explain, because there are NO words to tell you ANYTHING let alone everything about our...
For D. Bahe.
I know it’s rough. I know it’s really hard. I know you love her. I know it aches to see her with him. But you’re going to be okay. I know it’s going to be hard for you to talk to other girls and not miss her.
Time fucking sucks. I’ll definitely tell you that straight up.
She may want to move on, but she’ll NEVER forget.
I just want you to be happy.
And...
“How does it work? When you feel alive, but its not right. The moments that crawl...”
– my mind (via moniiggaa)
"Two bitches conspiring"
So this morning, I woke up exhausted cause I didn’t sleep until like 2 am last night texting FUCOLYYYY yuhh my nuggah. I had practice, but like, we took team pictures. So I hope I looked okay cause I was up all night and my eyes looked like I was getting punched hahah.
Came home, did all my facebook, myspace status shit and like had a problem with someone, cried. Whatever.
Called my niggas...
Cool…
I try to do what is best for me. And I fuck up. Whatever. If I’m happy with it, I’m fine. And for everyone who thinks I deserved to be cheated on, I don’t really give a shit about what you think.
Yeah I actually kinda do, but sorry it was my fault? I don’t even know what I did. Talk to the guy? Yeah, if he told me he had a girlfriend in the first place, that...
“If he were the right guy for you, there would be nothing on this earth keeping...”
Miracle
I’ve gone for too long living like I’m not alive So I’m going to start over tonight Beginning with you and I When this memory fades I’m gonna make sure it’s replaced With chances taken Hope embraced I hope I told you I’m not going cause I’ve been waiting for a miracle And I’m not leaving I won’t let you Let you give up on a miracle Cause it...
And he talks to her like I never existed.
Laying in your arms today was great don’t get me wrong.
But it’s like as if you lead me on to the greatest feeling in the world and then go talk to her like she was your world.
All I wanted was to be happy with you.
I deleted my angry and upset posts. But yet my escapes don’t help.
When will I catch a break? I’m floating...
“Simply telling you you deserve better and there are other guys out there,...”
– Rocha
As of right now
My throat will not get rid of that choking feeling.
I really don’t feel like doing anything right now. But I have to suck it up because my dad is having his belated birthday dinner tonight and my cousins are coming over.
It’s not my night but it’s going to be his. I want my dad happy.
I can swallow my nonhappiness for another day. I think I’ve put myself in front before...
“A heart is not meant to be given away, but to be shared”
The cute little panda bear pet pillow sits ontop of my bed. Not a bad symbol of any kind. Charlie, is her name.
I love to hold her.
She gives me a sense of comfort. Even if my elbow is just gently laying across her back.
Hard
They can say whateva, Imma do whateva, NO PAIN IS FOREVER, yup ya know dis.
Tougher than a lion, ain’t no need in tryin, I live where the sky ends, yup ya know dis.
Where dem girls talkin trash where dem girls talkin trash, where dey at where dey at where dey at?
-R
Brisk Summer Air
The brisk summer air comes in many different forms to my lungs
Sultry, smooth, searing, at times unruffled.
The ground looks tangible enough to fall asleep on.
Nothing close to feeling rigid or harsh.
The breeze smells delightful. I savor the taste of your succulent lips as you gently brush them against my trembling lips.
Rain drizzles lightly against my white t-shirt. I grip yours and we...
The green eyed monster
High school is full of backstabbing, liars, cheaters, whores, douchebags, etc. It seems like high school was made for pure drama. Jealousy. Fights. It doesn’t matter what century you’re in, high school is sick.
I hate being envious or hateful towards other girls but it’s so difficult.
Every girl wants to be the prettiest. But then she always sees some other tanned, blue eyed,...
It’s funny.
OF COURSE I’M FUCKING ANNOYED WITH YOU.
I feel rather tossed aside and left to decay.
The empty feeling at the bottom of my stomach isn’t from hunger. Just disappointment.
I can never seem to be able to hang out with the people I want to. There’s a reason. And it’s amusing how some people think I pay no attention to them, when I obviously do because I...
Exam week is killing me. I just wanna go out and do something crazy but I can’t cause there’s the studying I have to do.
Not to mention I still have to wake up early for bball practice for the next week. Dang what a great life…..NOT.
I just want someone to fucking make me relax and not beat my brain to a pulp. Teachers and coaches and parents drive me insane.
Hello comfort...
You're always right
So let me fight.
Emarosa
“Don’t let life discourage you, everyone who got where he is had to begin...”
It's interesting.
A sport you love can be so similiar to a person you love. Whenever someone brings up the subject of basketball and how I’m doing, I just get happy. I love talking about basketball. I love talking about how I’m doing in basketball. I love it. I love the pain, the pressure, the unknowing of a win or a loss, the excitement to prepare for a game whether it’s against a tough opponent...
I don’t see why is it that the people who work the hardest never get the recognition of a simple good job. Everyone has favorites. The most amazing thing is watching that one kid who struggles during practice but when he gets out to the court for only one minute, he plays with more heart than the best shooter out there.
I wish to meet you. Guide me through your mentality.
I’m just waiting.
He really doesn’t see where I’m coming from.
Whatever. I’m not going to worry.
He really doesn’t see where I’m coming from.
Whatever. I’m not going to worry.